You Can (Not) Change

This is a summarized version of what I thought after I read all of my own old posts.

1. Permanent anime manga J-Rock enthusiast. Still following and loving all of those Shiina Ringo (even her Tokyo Jihen has been disbanded long ago then regrouped on this year), Dir en Grey, The Gazette and some new bands... still reading FanFiction, read (pirate) manga scan, and watch anime (now it's on Netflix or Prime since those pirates streaming bay has long gone). Did you see that?! I'm able to pay those subscription. It means...

2. I have money! The only benefit of working is getting money. But my thought about money is still the same, it's about collecting it just to fuel those addiction as enthusiast. See that giant poster of Middle Earth' map? Or the Gundam that started to fill in those rack? This Asuka Langley Shikinami' hat? Speaking of which,

3. Did you know EVANGELION final movie supposed to hit theater this June but this godd*** Corona-chan just can't help but steal the spotlight?! If I can stand to wait for it release in years, guess I should able to handle one more year. So it goes into the next point...

4. Unfortunately with those hard-earned things I don't have time for traveling, which still is my life goal. Had visited some places but still not yet has the change to visit Japan, get an ice cream at the ice cold Antarctic or use the coat at Europe (Scandi part only), and of course pension life at New Zealand with all of those cute sheep. The time is there, but the timing never perfect since last year. Hmmh this is a can of worm that I don't want to indulge right now. And so now I...

5. Has more patience... or maybe I actually lost it? Still has lower expectation toward anything in life. Just to avoid those feeling of disappointment.

6. And since I has more patience (or totally lost it), I cannot for the life of me try to keep up different-different personality masks. No longer bother to keep up with others view. If someone can't stand me, I'm sure the feeling is mutual. After all there's a saying that when you're surrounded with people that you like, you'll try to make them like you too. And it because...

7. Getting older makes me no longer want to put a lot of effort to befriend someone new. I already has those precious friends that withstand years of separation (thanks guys, love you all). And even new friends that I collected were the one that able to see me at my worst.

8. And shouldn't it be your own family the one that see you at your worst? Nope. Still no. Don't want to. There's a line that we can't cross no matter what with your own family.

9. Still has a lot of questions, curious about everything and nothing at the same time, but I got a new hobby! When I was younger I has a lot of things that I like with nothing specific. But now I can proudly say it's my favourite past time to annoy other people. Especially when it's soooo boring. I'll sneakingly hijack other' laptop and send an embarrassing email to their boss or send a loving text to their 'enemy'. Aaaah I remember that one time I put an embarrassing photo of my group head (he's using full skin tight Robin costume and let's say everyone able to see that outline) as our group chat profile pic and everyone become hysteric. Such a good time.

Since 9 is a good number, let's stop here. Hmm...I might put the breakdown of that hysteric time here *evil laugh